Wednesday, 22 November 2017

"I talk to god, but the sky is empty"

On a last post I bemoaned about laziness. Well things change quickly and this week I'm working over 50 hours. I managed to have some extra shifts which keep me busy. They offered me more shifts also to the next  week, but I already had plans. 

These outfit pictures were taken last Friday, but I didn't find time to write a post earlier. This awesome knitting which has flashed every now and then on the blog is from Queen of Darkness. I wonder that it is still in a good shape after wearing it quite much. It looks so fragile and I was sure that there is a bigger hole quite soon. With the shirt I wore the newest second hand skirt and those lovely Pennangalan shoes which have been hiding deep in a closet for a long time. It's a big shame that they don't produce shoes anymore. Pennangalan was definitely my favorite goth shoe brand and they had so pretty models. Demonia, Killstar or other bulk brands can't beat it. 

The bed is calling early this evening despite of the fact that I already took a nap earlier today. I feel dead tired due to the short nights that I've spent recently. I hate the rush, but I see being quite good at creating it myself too. I can't wait for the suitable moment to start watching the newest Twin Peaks season which started running on the telly. I hope it's worth watching! 

Wednesday, 15 November 2017

The killing moon

Hello! Finally I have an inspiration to share this outfit from the other day. I have been such lazy for the past days or at least it feels like that. Okay I have been training a lot at the gym and also with the pole which has been fun, but otherwise some kind of laziness has overcome me badly and that's fairly annoying. But what delights me a lot is that I have got the inspiration back as for pole dancing. It's been lost for quite  a long time, but now there is a light on the horizon.

It's November and there isn't much daylight in use which makes taking of the outfit pictures much challenging. Perhaps that darkness is also a guilty why I feel so lazy. But yes, a few days ago I wore this black dress and white collar shirt. When I was younger I mixed a lot white and black clothes together and I wore striped black and white tights often, they were my favorite actually. This look still pleases my eyes a lot.

Monday, 6 November 2017


It's great have a birthday around Halloween which is one of the coolest jubilee; I couldn't have been able to wish the better day to come into existence. This year it was also a full moon which culminated the day. On Saturday evening I headed to the bar in this look below: 
 At first I wasn't about to do any special look, but then I decided to paint a sugar skull face in a last minute which was nice. I love this look and that top which is self made. With the top I wore a pencil skirt and  asymmetric knitting. Unfortunately I didn't have time to photograph the whole attire. 
I have seen nice pictures about people's Halloween homes and pastries. I didn't decor my home much, just added a flock of bats onto the wall with spider web. Most Halloween decorations that I've seen in the stores are simply too kitschy to my taste (perhaps that's their point?) so it's easy to pass them without a bigger lust . Some year I will hew out a pumpkin! 
Today I 'm going to watch Suspiria after many many years. It was played here at the cinema on Saturday.
Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween!

Saturday, 4 November 2017


Happy Birthday to me!
Dress: diy, Shoes: Minna Parikka, Headpiece: Second hand
A quickly post before I head to celebrate my 31st birthday into the night. Seriously a year rolled again. It feels like I turned 30 just a day ago..  and okay it feels also that I just turned 18. Life goes too fast!  

Tuesday, 31 October 2017

Horror and Tease Show

The month comes to its end and one of my favorite season is going on which of course means some celebrating. What is Halloween without some good parties? Last Saturday I headed to see Burlesque and this was most likely the best show I have ever seen. Absolutely stunning ideas, costumes which was all put together. Unfortunately I didn't have a proper camera with me so I desperately tried to capture shots by phone. My favorite character was Nosferatu which was made so perfectly and was fancy too. 

I was too lazy again and "forgot" to plan the costume for myself.. why I always realize it too late? So I just put something on what I quickly found in the wardrobe after the work shift. I felt really underdressed amongst those amazing outfits. I should start planning the outfit the months before Halloween so that I wouldn't miss it. I always think that next year I will robe myself until the time comes and I notice to be without the dress.

A group portrait and you can see Nosferatu on left side. Also Clea Cutthroat was super, but well they all were! 
Well known character from Sweeney Todd and now I want to see the movie.

Tuesday, 24 October 2017

Hvis Lyset Tar Oss

A short peek to a day's look and a new t-shirt which arrived the other day. The darkness starts falling quite early which complicates taking of the outfit pictures in the nature light, but today I managed to make use of the sun. 

A while ago I ordered Burzum's t-shirt which I had been admiring for months and today I decided to put it on with the new second hand skirt and knitting which has been on nearly every day due to the cold weather which teases us here in Finland. On Sunday it was already snowing and I couldn't decide is it cool or not. Seriously for the next six months will be more or less freezing until the sun starts to increase its power again. 
Tomorrow there would be Mayhem playing and I can't choose whether to go or no. It would be kind of tempting, but the tickets are fairly expensive. On Saturday there is a burlesque night and that sounds good too except that I have a morning shift on Sunday, but this wouldn't be the first time if I arrived at the work after short sleeps. 

Saturday, 21 October 2017

She is staring at the sky

An outfit from the week. I managed to find a pencil skirt in the flea market a week ago and it was like new. The skirt is made of a stretchy material including a lining. I find it's pretty quality and fits perfectly. Sometimes I need to narrow a hip from the ready-made skirts because my hip is quite nonexistent, but not this time. A mesh shirt is many years old which I bought when I lived in Savonlinna and a harness is self made. 
Shirt: Lindex, Skirt: Flea market, Harness: Diy
During the week I've been drawing and sketching quite much. I realized that I never draw animals except the birds so I tried to practice drawing of a cat and it was fun. Usually I'm drawing people and that comes because I'm a fashion designer and I'm mostly designing clothes so it's natural to me draw the humans.. but it makes good to try something new every now and then. And speaking of the new things I have become interested in photographing the stars of the Milky Way. Unfortunately it has been too cloudy now so I haven't managed to shoot any shot yet. An autumn is great time to stare at the stars, but of course the sky must be clear. I have always been interested in the space, stars, planets and astrology, but I have never taken the photos of the stars. I have photographed a lot of the moon, but somehow I have passed those flickering spots of the sky. I photograph a lot of the nature and I miss the new subjects so I got this idea to start taking pictures of the Milky Way. Now I'm just waiting for the clear nights!

Monday, 16 October 2017

You are a vision in blood

Finally I have a moment to open blogger; these days seem to run although I wouldn't have anything specific on the hand.  Okay now I need to admit  being hooked to play with the new laptop when it's possible after a while and every nerd knows how quickly the time disappears with a good game. I have been really happy with the choice to buy Lenovo Yoga. So far it has been working smoothly. 

During last week we rented a table in the flea market and I manage to sell some stuff, but a lot of was not sold too. I don't have any idea what to do with the rest of goods. So far I brought them to the attic. I managed to made a few nice findings myself too, but I come those later. 
An outfit from the weekend and new shoes which I bought some time ago.  I wanted to get the flat bottomed shoes for the autumn and ended up getting these. These are from Skopunkten and because there is always the offer "buy two and get the cheaper pair at half price"  I took another pair too. Most my shoes are heels so these come for the need.  My legs are sometimes so tired  (because of the gym) that I feel more comfy while wearing not heels. 
Poncho: DIY, Shoes: Skopunkten, Necklace: from WGT

This week seems to be quite easy when it comes to the work. Short shifts so I try to spend quality time with the sewing machine. 

Wednesday, 11 October 2017


After the last post I made a decision to order Lenovo Yoga and that arrived on Monday. My weekend spent so slowly when I just waited for Monday to come. I ended up choosing Lenovo instead of Mac because this was of course a bit cheaper, but in addition included more memory and I was interested in 2 in 1 feature which means that this works also as a tablet due to the touch screen. The screen turns 360-degrees and this is powerful enough for games and software. I tested to play with it and it worked so smoothly. I'm poor, but really joyful! 
An outfit which I wore the other day. 
It's inktober time so I've drawn everything too over the month. I'm really glad that I've found the inspiration again. This one is my Poe drawing which I made by markers. 
Nothing much has happened. The big new was that I got the new laptop so I can write a blog much easier from now on when I don't need to fight with the powerless computer. 

Wednesday, 4 October 2017

Rotting world

I've been armed with my camera for the past days and been wandering around the dying nature. Last Friday was so beautiful foggy weather and I had an evening shift which made it possible to admire the nature through the lens in the morning and I ended up shooting the  hundreds pictures. Unfortunately I'm still bounded to my old laptop and only because I can't choose the new one to me. Going through those shots with my old computer is such a slow path that I publish just these few pictures with you. 
I do hope the nature gives us more the days like these. 

And back to that computer issue! This starts to be ridiculous. I've been pondering a new laptop for months now and still I can't decide which model I should buy.  MacBook Pro is tempting because I have never had Mac and people say it's good. Then again it's also really expensive and I'm so used to work with Windows. The second option is Lenovo Yoga and I also considered Lenovo game laptop. Yesterday I visited a store and several sellers asked if I need help. Yes I do need a help to make a decision. 

Thursday, 28 September 2017

'You put me outside, I was singing a song, You looked to the window But I was already gone'

Days seems to run from my view uncontrollably and one of my favorite month is nearly gone. Trees are changing their attires and I've been hunting haze views with my camera in the mornings. I would love to take the pictures about the thick fog, but so far the luck hasn't found me. 

Last weekend we went to see a few gigs once again; Lasten Hautausmaa and Grave Pleasures. I hadn't seen Grave Pleasures before and actually I realized the singer's previous project Beastmilk is more familiar to me. However I enjoyed both shows. Lasten Hautausmaa never betray; one of my favorite band and by the way my beloved was that kind that he ordered their  newest vinyl to me because it was still missing. 

A few outfit pictures which were taken last week when we went for a walk. I was wearing a self made velvet coat which is the perfect coat for fall. 
I've spent most of my days at beloved's place by reading and resurrecting the skills of drawing. I have become more familiar with Arthur Rimbaud's poetry who was a genius of his own time. It's also nice that the inspiration for drawing is growing! I could draw a tattoo sketch and make an appointment. 

Tuesday, 19 September 2017

New knitting for fall

 Because the winter approaches us threateningly and I realized that the many of my cardigans are so worn out I got a great excuse to go a little bit shopping. I had a huge good anxiety after moving, but now it's just a ghost in the past and shopping fever colonize on the mind. I found a simple black cardigan with the pockets and I added buttons onto it myself. It's warm and goes as a coat as well if it is a warm day. I like to wear the cardigans and hoodies quite much on the workdays. They are handy to put on in the morning when tiredness tries to overcome. There was a lot of nice clothes and shoes, but I try to keep my sporran closed. The autumn is definitely the best season to make findings in the ordinary stores. 

Wednesday, 13 September 2017

Shades of fall

Hello! As I mentioned I found some new makeup products so I decided to write a short post about those. 

I wasn't able to resist a new eyeshadow palette from Nyx when I saw it in the store so I happily whisked it into a shopping basket and brought to home. It includes sixteen different shades which go well together with the autumn like as well with my eyes and skin tone. My blue eyes love orange and brownish red. They emphasize the blue color very well and make eyes pop out. After testing the product I can say it's worth every penny. There is enough pigment and shades spread well. Light colors are good for highlight and it's possible to create several different looks by using darker shades. I've noticed that quite many beauty vloggers on youtube have been excited about this too. Now I'm twenty euro poorer much more colorful. ;)

 In addition I found a perfect dark red lipstick that I have been looking for forever. Unfortunately it's not that super lasting and it requires a liner otherwise it spreads over the face like it did to me a few days ago at work. I have favored the liquid lipsticks recently because I find those last much better and are easy to use. 

Friday, 8 September 2017

The Circus

Hello and happy Friday to you all! This week has been a bit more peculiar as normally because we decided to go Circus Finlandia after many many years. I guess I was 12-years-old the last time I went the circus so it was nice to visit there. We were about to go already a year ago, but I got a terrible flu. The circus was quite similar as I remembered. There was some animals and trapeze artists which are my favorite. I fell in love with llamas and I would like to have one. 
I put on this simple outfit. Happily the weather was nice, not too cold and it didn't rain. 
Soon I have to leave for work and after the shift I try to survive to see Freakangel and Two Witches to Klubi. My shift ends 9.30 pm so I'll go to a bar straight from the work which is a bit boring. I would have wanted to put effort on makeup and clothes, but now I don't have time for that. 

Monday, 4 September 2017


I've been enjoying a day off today after working during six days last week. The day was creative and  included even a bit shopping though I try to save my money for exploring of the world desperately.. I had a huge fewer to get abroad, but it looks that there is a dark shadow over my bank account :D I miss London and I also would like to pay a visit to Poland... and Berlin is also haunting on the mind.. Why can't I be a rich?

I woke up early today and enjoyed when I didn't have to hurry up with the makeup so I created smokey eyes after a long time. I also ended up purchasing  new cosmetics which I do rarely. I found a perfect lipstick and eye shadows that fit well together with the autumn. Perhaps I will introduce them you at some point. 
Today my outfit was created around the old flea market findings which I bought some years ago. I like the dress a lot and also those shoes. A necklace is the finding from Lumous festival which I made a year ago. I haven't worn it just at all for I forgot to own it. 
Drawing pencils and a sewing machine have offered a company to me during the day for I'm currently making trousers to my beloved and I got enthusiastic with sketching. The trousers are nearly done and I'm very happy with the result. They fit perfectly so I decided to sew another pair after.
The day is always good if it's possible to spend it with the creative things like I did today.